I don’t know how to let other people take care of me. As much as I may want someone to sometimes, I just don't know how. I don’t always even know how to relax when people try. I know how to do things for people. I know how to recognize the things that people like and love and I can do that for them. Doing things for people is how I show I care. I pay attention and try to give people what they need. I’m happy taking care of people.
I feel awkward when they express their appreciation.
Even the most normal things like remembering my birthday or getting me a holiday card, it feels strange to me. Don’t get me wrong, it makes me smile and I’m very grateful, but I’m always a little surprised to be remembered, a little in shock, and unsure what the proper emotional reaction is. I’m almost embarrassed when people do things for me. Not because what people do isn’t good enough, but because I don’t know what to do with myself when I’m not the one doing things for people.
At a loss.